For three years now I have been refusing myself from the things I want. I have forced myself to isolation, said no to things that I knew would bring me joy.
I have missed out on so much these past years, how could I let it happen?
How could I make me feel so much regret? Why would I do that to me? And why do I still do it?
Why do I deny myself of the happy moments that I have missed, how could I refuse myself of them?
I am so tired of missing out, I am so tired of not living.
It’s time to stop sacrificing my happiness for imaginary safety.
I can never be sure when I lose control. It can happen anywhere, anytime and with anybody. I am never safe, and I won’t be safer for skipping out of things.
I am going to start to say yes, at least a bit more to start off with. I am going to try my best to not keep the happiness from me, because I deserve it, and so do you
Now who thought that I was crying while writing this? Well I did, crying is kind of my thing, especially when I have to think about things like this, but that’s okay.